XXVI

Zigzags, rain drops fall
against windows tracing words –
you’ll be fine; and as
you grow older, you’ll find you’ve
been lovable, all this time

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Thank you for reading this poem from the (un)lovable poetry series written by Tiny Fawns. (un)lovable, when read chronologically, consists of twenty-six tanka poems unfolding a tiny, “safe” glimpse of the inner conflicts I often struggle with in regard to self acceptance, social anxiety, and depression. If you have read this far, please remember: It is okay to think deeply. It is okay to feel deeply. It is okay to look at yourself and not be proud of what you see. It is okay to feel hopeless, as if there is nothing to believe in. Life is meant to feel broken at times. We are meant to feel broken at times. This is because we are never meant to “plateau” – we are meant to struggle, to strive to better ourselves. And if, along this journey, you need to take a step back and cry – that is not selfish or shameful, that is okay. That is real, that is human. To let the pain wash over you is to release it. To let the loneliness break your heart is to release it. To let fears break your mind is to release them. This may take days, months, or even a lifetime. You are blooming into a better you, gradually, slowly. I write my pain to write for you. I still struggle at times to say I am lovable, but I’d like to say it to you – you are lovable. Stay true in being you. -Brianna Dawn, aka Tiny Fawns.

(backdated Post A Day Poem for November 30th, 2017)

XXV

Your mind is of gold,
heart stitched in silver lining,
eyes lined in coal black,
muddy green, let the tears shine –
take back you, and say, “i’m mine”.

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Thank you for reading this poem from the (un)lovable poetry series written by Tiny Fawns. (un)lovable, when read chronologically, consists of twenty-six tanka poems unfolding a tiny, “safe” glimpse of the inner conflicts I often struggle with in regard to self acceptance, social anxiety, and depression. If you have read this far, please remember: It is okay to think deeply. It is okay to feel deeply. It is okay to look at yourself and not be proud of what you see. It is okay to feel hopeless, as if there is nothing to believe in. Life is meant to feel broken at times. We are meant to feel broken at times. This is because we are never meant to “plateau” – we are meant to struggle, to strive to better ourselves. And if, along this journey, you need to take a step back and cry – that is not selfish or shameful, that is okay. That is real, that is human. To let the pain wash over you is to release it. To let the loneliness break your heart is to release it. To let fears break your mind is to release them. This may take days, months, or even a lifetime. You are blooming into a better you, gradually, slowly. I write my pain to write for you. I still struggle at times to say I am lovable, but I’d like to say it to you – you are lovable. Stay true in being you. -Brianna Dawn, aka Tiny Fawns.

(backdated Post A Day Poem for November 29th, 2017)

XXIV

Exiled, cast away.
farewell to the younger me.
bye to cold mirrors.
goodnight to the former way
i used to break my old me.

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Thank you for reading this poem from the (un)lovable poetry series written by Tiny Fawns. (un)lovable, when read chronologically, consists of twenty-six tanka poems unfolding a tiny, “safe” glimpse of the inner conflicts I often struggle with in regard to self acceptance, social anxiety, and depression. If you have read this far, please remember: It is okay to think deeply. It is okay to feel deeply. It is okay to look at yourself and not be proud of what you see. It is okay to feel hopeless, as if there is nothing to believe in. Life is meant to feel broken at times. We are meant to feel broken at times. This is because we are never meant to “plateau” – we are meant to struggle, to strive to better ourselves. And if, along this journey, you need to take a step back and cry – that is not selfish or shameful, that is okay. That is real, that is human. To let the pain wash over you is to release it. To let the loneliness break your heart is to release it. To let fears break your mind is to release them. This may take days, months, or even a lifetime. You are blooming into a better you, gradually, slowly. I write my pain to write for you. I still struggle at times to say I am lovable, but I’d like to say it to you – you are lovable. Stay true in being you. -Brianna Dawn, aka Tiny Fawns.

(backdated Post A Day Poem for November 28th, 2017)

XXIII

Weakness, stay with me.
you whisper, but you mean best.
secretly, you’re strength –
a gentle heartache, trying
to help me release my pain.

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Thank you for reading this poem from the (un)lovable poetry series written by Tiny Fawns. (un)lovable, when read chronologically, consists of twenty-six tanka poems unfolding a tiny, “safe” glimpse of the inner conflicts I often struggle with in regard to self acceptance, social anxiety, and depression. If you have read this far, please remember: It is okay to think deeply. It is okay to feel deeply. It is okay to look at yourself and not be proud of what you see. It is okay to feel hopeless, as if there is nothing to believe in. Life is meant to feel broken at times. We are meant to feel broken at times. This is because we are never meant to “plateau” – we are meant to struggle, to strive to better ourselves. And if, along this journey, you need to take a step back and cry – that is not selfish or shameful, that is okay. That is real, that is human. To let the pain wash over you is to release it. To let the loneliness break your heart is to release it. To let fears break your mind is to release them. This may take days, months, or even a lifetime. You are blooming into a better you, gradually, slowly. I write my pain to write for you. I still struggle at times to say I am lovable, but I’d like to say it to you – you are lovable. Stay true in being you. -Brianna Dawn, aka Tiny Fawns.

(backdated Post A Day Poem for November 27th, 2017)

XXII

Voice, mine’s echoing
from somewhere inside my skull;
but i can’t hear it
when i try to tell myself
weakness isn’t foolishness.

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Thank you for reading this poem from the (un)lovable poetry series written by Tiny Fawns. (un)lovable, when read chronologically, consists of twenty-six tanka poems unfolding a tiny, “safe” glimpse of the inner conflicts I often struggle with in regard to self acceptance, social anxiety, and depression. If you have read this far, please remember: It is okay to think deeply. It is okay to feel deeply. It is okay to look at yourself and not be proud of what you see. It is okay to feel hopeless, as if there is nothing to believe in. Life is meant to feel broken at times. We are meant to feel broken at times. This is because we are never meant to “plateau” – we are meant to struggle, to strive to better ourselves. And if, along this journey, you need to take a step back and cry – that is not selfish or shameful, that is okay. That is real, that is human. To let the pain wash over you is to release it. To let the loneliness break your heart is to release it. To let fears break your mind is to release them. This may take days, months, or even a lifetime. You are blooming into a better you, gradually, slowly. I write my pain to write for you. I still struggle at times to say I am lovable, but I’d like to say it to you – you are lovable. Stay true in being you. -Brianna Dawn, aka Tiny Fawns.

(backdated Post A Day Poem for November 26th, 2017)